Why's it so hard to say goodbye?

SO its been a week since we left our home, our love nest. I usually hate blogging after the fact because the feelings cant be captured the same way that they feel in the moment but the only way I could describe the feeling of turning in the keys to our first apartment is, heartbreak. I didn't expect it to be so hard to leave. At the beginning of the year Massachusetts ahd been my prison. I felt stuck here against my will and I couldn't see the good in anything, but as we packed up all our wordly possessions and tried to consolidate the ones that we would be taking with us, I realized that we have been off to a good start as a young couple, or just young people maing in it general. I realized that in fact that we've had a goodlife and that I was deeply saddend to be leaving the comfy little routine and comfort zone that we've established. I almost cried.
Fast forward a few days and we are all settled into my old room at my mom's house. It's a funny little place for us to be because I practically grew up in this house.We moved in when I was 11 and my parents have never moved since. I even found my old work badge from the era when I lived there and when I worked with Jason (my hubby) when we were only 16 and first in love. So I kind of like it.
Continuing on from the reminisce, It's feeling more official now, but not completely real. I think it's still too far off. we're saving for the trip now, we've moved, next week is my last week of school, and I've sent off all my documents. I'm glad I decided to stay at my mom's for now though. I'm hoping this will be the future layover spot for years to come. I'm dreaming big on this one. I'm hoping to possibly do 4 years in the UAE, a few more years in Japan, and who knows where after that. I;ll keep you updated in the mean time.

A Tornado in Springfield?!

So Springfield actually made CNN with a tornado today. School is closed tomorrow so I definetly only worked 2 days this week, and Im concerned about the baby chicks in my class. Like that's a real issue. I'm not gonna front. I was scared. I was stuck in the car during the initial tornado because I was on my way to the hair shop and I was not changing my plans for anybody. Not even the tornado up the street! literally!!! Women sitting at the dryers saw the debris going by the window! You see thats the thing though. Springfield always gets tornado watches but we've never had a real tornado in my lifetime. SO when one really came we were taken by surprise and it did make a mess. It ripped my husband's cousin's roof right off so that you could see in!
I was afraid too. On our way to go pick up DINNER in the TORNADO, the sky turned a greenish color and got bright as daylight. It was lightning and thundering. I literally started wimpering! I was about to cry for real. I'm glad it;s all over and none of my family had any issues. it's like it skipped around all of us. Even my mom, and it tore up the rest of her neighborhood for quite a few blocks.

Give me the green light....I'm ready to go right now

I forgot who sings the song but this song " Green light" is defiently the state of mind im in right now. I was kind of low key since I got the news. I haven't been talking, or reseaching about it or anything really. Now it's becoming real. I'm getting all worked up again. I'm up late on the computer researching, imagining, what it will be like. I know I have some obstacles ahead of me though.I'm nervous about how difficult it will be to teach. I prayed about being a good teacher this year so I will pray again that God give me the strength and patience to do just as well this year. The first one being authenticating all my documents. I'm not even sure how to go about it. I know I have to get them notarised first( instate out of state ? who knows) then I have to go to the secretary of state and get a certification (basically like an apostille)but at least I can walk that in. Then Im going to send it to pro-ex so they an send it to the UAE embassy in DC and then theres some other step. Whew! At least I got my passport today so I scan that! There is just so much more paperwork involved than when I was headed to Korea! My second biggest hurdle will be trying to save a minimum of 3,000 dollars without a job in July and still get everything I need before moving to a foreign country. Then Jason has to prepare his documents and enroll in classes before we leave, and we both want to lose a significant amount of weight! The to do list is crazy!
To top it all off I have to pack up this house and move in with my mom, sister, niece, dad, and hubby in a 2 bedroom house, but somehow I'm excited. I feel like I'm going to have more fun than ever this summer and Im am optomistic about this experience. Just a few short months agao I din't even know what I was going to do with my life. I was deeply depressed too. It feels good to feel adventure on the horizon. This is how things are supposed to be.

and 3 years later!

Ok so it's official. I got my contract! I still haven't recieved my passport or documents back yet though and havent mad the first move towards moving out, although we are supposed to be packed up and shipped out in the next two weeks!There is so much to do and not nearly enough time and I havent really been doing much since the interview. I know I'm going to be all panicky near August so i need to get a move on. I'm just so glad that I finally know what I'm doing with my life again.

To Be or Not To Be...

So, Im waiting 50/11 years to get my official contract from Abu dhabi. I went to Times square and had a great time. My interview was very relaxed and my interviewer said I got the job at the end of interviewer. No Screams yet though. Here it is over a week later and i have still not recieved a contract officially. I have started planning my life around this so i need to get it in the mail now. Until then... we wait.

Update

the update you've all been waiting for... Well actually there isnt much of an update. Much like the process of going back and forth before I left to Korea, I am once again all over the place. SO I yet again have another interview for Abu dhabi. I'm in a different place than I was last time and yes i really want to go to the Middle east. Im not even entertaining the idea of staying here another year. I am almost willing to go anywhere but stay here. I have the Abu Dhabi interview in about 9 days and I am really going this time, but I'm looking for plans A, B, C, and D just in case. I think korea is Plan D at this time and Qatar is a possible plan B. Anyhoo this week I've been on spring break and getting all my documents together though it seems i wont have anything done on time. i had to prepare my criminal background check, reference letters, i still need to scan documents,updated my resume, got my transcripts, and got my name changed on my passport. Well ill let you know the verdict in a few days. Im scared to get excited or research anything before then, even though the addiction has slightly began. I feel confident about this, but then again Im not the most qualified person and i could end up with my face broke. i hope this is the start of an adventure for us.

Living the vida loca!

So... its me again. here to tell you that now we are on an even new endeavor. We are not giving up on getting out of here. The newest news, is that now Jason will be flying to Vegas for a night, to go test for a job in Vegas. This time I am still going to my interview in New York for Abu Dhabi. As long as we get something. I hope were both not a fail.I want to move to Vegas. Its an option thats equally fun, warm, financially beneificial, and far away. On another note. Im kind of boring today because I cant really focus due to a hangover. Jason and I actually had a good time last night! Yay, finally! anyways Ima go